by Shoshana Seidman
What happens to pieces of flesh, mounds of hair, boxes full of tumors that have been removed? What
happens to an unmemory, a thing-that-isn't-there?
I want to go walking and stumble across a graveyard for discarded body parts. Put my face to the cold dirt
and feel the pulse of a heartbeat underneath. The whisper of a breast lump. The sweet song of a crackling bone fragment. Here I will make up a eulogy to all parts lost and gone, but not dead. -ectomy: A surgical suffix referring to the removal of something. For example, a lumpectomy is the surgical excision of a lump which may be benign or not, tonsillectomy is the removal of the tonsils, a partial colectomy is removal of part of the colon, an appendectomy is removal of the appendix, etc. From the Greek "ek" (out) + "tome" (a cutting)
= a cutting out. Benign, or not. A cutting out. Scars may be benign, or not.
My eulogy, my song, will start: You, piece of flesh, cut out of my body, pulled out of my body, my -ectomy, you were a stone in the wall of my soul, you were glue in the fabric of my being, you were a site for things known and unknown. All the discarded body parts will mumble and groan, they will be full of life, I will be the only one in the graveyard to hear them, a witness to a new being, an unbeing, forming underneath mounds of dirt, forming from a seed of abandonment, forming into a monster. My song, my eulogy, will continue: You, oh flesh, oh part of me, you are not gone forever, you are immortalized forever in wounds, in scars, in deep trenches of disfigured skin that they promised would not form, but have, that they promised would not stay, but do. I will touch my knee, the sacred site, I will touch the small of my back, the sacred site, I will touch my throat, the sacred site. Words will come frrom the ground, monstrous and beautiful words, a new language of a piecemeal monster. -emesis=vomiting, -emia=blood condition, -ess=female, -itis=disease, -holic=love, addiction, -enchyma=cellular tissue, -osis=diseased condition. Monstrous and beautiful words, new words, will pile up, replacing discarded body parts, suturing together the parts that left a gaping hole.
Issue #5 CONTENTS
Keeping it Necroreal
David Van Gough
The Quick and the Dead
The Potters' Field
Shed Shed Shed
Rachel Ann Girty
The Shivering Girls
The Monarch of the Sill Shenoa Carroll-Bradd
The Puzzle Box
Pink Afternoon, Reconstruction
Reflections of a Pissed Off Killown
Shoshana Seidman received her BA in Writing/Literature from the University of California, San Diego. She has taught elementary school in Los Angeles School District via Teach for America, tried out law school, waited tables at an iconic LA restaurant, and now works in graphic design. Plus: always writing. Life is full of magical realism and monsters that eat cookies, so she believes everything will be okay.